another Dark day

ମୁଁ ପା କହିଲି ଭଗବାନ ଙ୍କୁ ଡାକୁଚି ସଭୁବେଲେ

ବାଞ୍ଜ ହେଇଥାନ୍ତି କି ଭଲ ହେଇଥାନ୍ତା ଶତ ଗୁଣ ଭଲ ହେଇ ଥାଆନ୍ତା

ତୋ ଭଳିଆ କର୍ମ କୁଢ଼ିଆ ଝିଅ ଜନ୍ମ ହେଇ କାହାର କଣ ଓପlଡ଼ିବ

ଏଭଳି ବଞ୍ଚିବା ଅପେକ୍ଷା ମରିଯିବା ଶତ ଗୁଣ ଭଲ

ଜନ୍ମ ହେଲୁ ଯଦି ଏହି ଖିଣୀ ମରିଯାଆନ୍ତୁ କି

କି ସୁଖ ଦବୁ ତୁ ଝିଅ ମୋତେ..

Just bunch of repetitive words

My ears are tired of listening these words

May be WordsWords seem so general now to ur ear but when someone curses with these words loudly violently and ear can't hear a bit of good words except fr these words I don't know about others but I just feel like I want to close my ear eyes everything I just want to die at the very moment

It's enough

ମରିଯାଆନ୍ତୁ କି ତୁ ଝିଅ ଏହି ଖିଣୀ। ତୁ ଏହି ଖିଣୀ ମରିଯାଆନ୍ତୁ ଯଦି କେତେ ଭଲ ହୁଅନ୍ତା ପୋତି ଦେଇଆସନ୍ତି ଶାନ୍ତି ରେ ରହନ୍ତି

Sometimes I wish thees words to come true at the very moment

He! Bidhata! Please take me away

But I'm not a punyatma that the lord will grant my wish and take me away

I'm tired of living this life

• I don't have that minimal energy left to continue

I'm so tired now.

• I was a very underdeveloped child

My childhood was never good it was the worst

Still I've managed to live yet

• Sometimes It's like. I think I thank myself and God that I've made it 20 years now

• I used to do like this

• Every year I congratulate myself after each day over I thank myself that congrats Rai u've lived one day more one ye more ur growing u can live

• But I'm feeling exhausted

I don't have any other family members with whom I can share anything who can help me, guide me in a way what's good for me

• Also I'm very shy to go infront camera and ask for help outside like those YouTube things

I can't do anything like that

• For now I'm just writing whatever and asking Lord to help me

• He's helping me so I've made it to twenty years

I've lived worst years by God grace so I hope my lord will continue to bless me

I've never gotten any praise for anything

Actually I've no special talent

I'm just a below average girl

Neither special beauty

nor don't dress well or anything

My eyes are completely dried

I can't cry more to heal

There's nobody who's listening me in person

What should I do

ଜାଣି ଥାଆନ୍ତି ଯଦି ତନ୍ଟୀ ଚିପି ଦେଇ ଥାନ୍ତି

ମୂଳ ରୁ ଯାଇଥାନ୍ତୁ

It's not even one hundredth of word

s I'm listening there are a lot more

I can't type here

I'm so tired of thistoxici

I don't know what to do

I don't want to get married like other girls this earli

I've not studied anything for one year now for these family things

What should I do

Whom should I ask for suggestions

I can't see anything good

This site is not upgraded

I'm just writing here for free now

Anyway

I've to go now

Remember

*"Life can be so hard at times. I know may be ur life is more terrible

It's haunting u at each moment

But please never ever loose hope and always trust God and His ways

I hope tommorow I'll come again to write here.

Bye. ...........

Stay blessed

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