17/05/21

I want to be strong like her but I don't want my strength to harm anyone like hers

I don't think she'll get normal someday and will treat me better atleast as a human

Already I'm twenty

I became ten now twenty,,, I always hoped that everything will be normal as illy grow up but no nothing Its getting worse day by day

I fear that someday I'll become like her and start to take happiness of people around me as like her

May be. She can infect me with her worst side

ନା ତା ସାଙ୍ଗରେ ବଢ଼ି ହେବ ନା ତା ସାଙ୍ଗରେ ବଞ୍ଚି ହେବ

What can I do

What should I do

Everyday after waking up I just hope may this day pass in a better way

But always I'm getting disappointed

What real thing should I try

Prayer is a great things I

I'm praying to lord

Hope in future I can lead a better life than this

Today I just placed a weight jar on wheat pack and after seeing she got mad

She shouted on me like hell

IM actually a stone

But one word ହିଞ୍ଜିଡ୍ଡୀ this word it hurts me

this

Another word ବେଧି that she calls always

I'm very much accustomed to her tantrums now but still she's my only own person yet in life, Ivey gotten her only

So everytime whenever she becomes mad at me I'm feeling terrible and I'm crying............

Some

Sometimes it's like she's so violent that I fear she can kill me now so I don't remain silent like I used to

I cry louder st anyone nearby can listen and help me or else atleast they can listen my last voice on earth...

Hope everything will be well soon

May god grant strength everyone there

Stay blessed u all

Bye

See u tomorrow

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